I have realized that prayer is the only way we can defeat and protect ourselves from Satan. I have been struggling with some heavy issues with my ex-husband as well as whether or not I should move my little family back to Tennessee. My heart has been clouded by stress, anxiety and fear. I would sit and tell myself that I needed to pray about it, but prayed about any and everything else in my quiet moments. I knew the Lord knew what was on my heart, but I didn't speak to Him about it.
I emailed a dear friend about my faced problems and was told to "bathe it in prayer." She told me I needed to go to the Lord and listen for His will to be revealed. Again, I prayed but did not truly pray like I knew I should have about these significant events.
Sitting in church yesterday I was listening to Brother Jack preach from Joshua. I was realizing that Satan has been eating at me in these two areas and messing with my emotions. I was letting him have a grand ole time too! Out of no where Brother Jack says, "Bathe any decision in prayer and do so with an open Bible." My eyes and ears immediately perked up. I knew God was telling me yet again to bathe my fears and problems in Him.
I know God is the judge of my ex-husband, and He also will take care of him. I just have to trust in Him and know He will take care of me even when those before will not. I truly feel like I am supposed to move my family back to Tennessee. I am giving that situation up to the Lord. I am not going to let Satan have his way with me when it comes to my past.
After prayer and people speaking to me, I truly feel that we are supposed to move back to Tennessee. I want to go home! I want to be back where I have spiritual support and love. I want to have my relationship with Christ strengthened by those who love and know Him. I want to spend time with my family. I want to shower my children with God's love and word with the help of family and church. I want to be back in His love and word. I realize I can feel God's love and be in His word wherever I may be, but something about doing these things at home is calling me.
These past several months of living here have opened my eyes to a lot of things. I have realized that God can turn a cursing into a blessing. God has taken my curse of divorce and made it into a blessing in the fact that I am walking with Him and my children have come to know Him. He has made me realize He is the only man I need in my life and I can do this single parenting thing with the help of His mercy and grace. He has turned my move here into a blessing in the sense that I have realized that my family in Tennessee does love me and want me around. They do love my children and want them in their lives. They have seen the errors of their ways too and we have had heart felt talks that were long over due. I pray that when we return these feelings are still shown by all parties.
It is my prayer that if it be God's will for us to move that a home will be provided in the time frame we need. If it be His will a job will become available. If it be His will the lease on our current home will get lifted with ease. If it be His will we will be able to come up with funds and able bodies to move us back. I pray that the issues with my ex-husband will be resolved in His time and that I will not allow Satan to tear my faith in God taking care of us down.
God has a plan for me. He loves me and my children very much, He always will. He will always take care of us, always has. He blesses me daily. He is my rock. He will never leave me.
